Willful

•January 23, 2016 • Leave a Comment

Willful
Snowflakes shifting
Drifting in reverse
Suddenly forgetting
Their mission to fall
Changing their mind
Desiring a new direction
They decide to catch
The next breeze back
Upward tending
But the Winter Wind
Only plays with them
Swirling their climb
Around his finger, He
Cradles their attempts
Their wishes for ascension
For a moment in his palm
Before blowing them
Back down again
As was always
Intended

-a.r.

_snowflakes__by_candymax
Photograph: Snowflakes by candymax found here:
http://abduzeedo.com/snowflakes-photography-inspiration

Monsters

•January 20, 2016 • Leave a Comment

I make monsters
out of molehills
while I toss my hair
and try to skip
over and
around them
or I blithely think
to kick them down
but by then
they have already grabbed
my ankles
yanking hard
causing me to sink
and who can skip
or kick
or blithely do anything
while you’re up to your knees
in monster’s muck and lair
not me, apparently
so today
I simply
look down and lock eyes
monster a monster
and wonder if they know
just who
they have in tow

-a.r.

Demon pet Painting: A Girl and her Demon Pet, by Omar Rayyan

Foggy

•January 18, 2016 • Leave a Comment

A fog

Of should-have

And to-do

Rolling in

My body needed

Resting

But beware

Those rocky chores

Along the shore

Kept at bay

But waiting

Still piercing

With late

Morning’s clearing

-a.r.

Foggy

Jouissance

•January 15, 2016 • 1 Comment

I have felt such loss
Of a thing before it left
Excruciating

I am told that this
Is love with its claws dug in
Eviscerating

-a.r.

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Photograph: Claws I 
by armene on deviantart.com

Little Bird

•January 13, 2016 • 6 Comments

That morning
The little bird
Flew down our chimney
We stood still
Hushed and waiting
No sound
But the rustling of flustered wings
And my child muffling a scream
No movement
But the swirling of six month old soot
From her feathers like tiny contrails
In the morning light
She landed on the sill of our closed window
And stilled
Like us
Her body wound tight and vibrating
Staccato twitching, watching
Us, the window, us, the window
And then
She began rubbing her tiny feathered skull
With a fluid motion across the thick glass
Back and forth
Back and forth
Back and forth
Accompanied by a soft clicking
Each time she changed direction
Her beak quietly tapping
A Morse Code
An S.O.S to save her soul
And so You did
Slowly You made Your way to her side
She trusted You, she stayed
I swear I saw Your reflection in her ebony eye
You
Gently
Reached
And inched
That
Old
Window
Open
There was a pause, a moment
Of our collective breath being held
She looked around with a tilted head
As if confused by her own stillness
She took it all in
And then she leapt

That morning
Felt like
Magic

-a.r.

Bird

This is a repost of a previous poem, and an actual event.
Some days it feels as if that morning is still happening.

Pandora’s Ache

•January 10, 2016 • 5 Comments

This ache
Here you are again
Nesting nerves under my skin
The obvious and throbbing thumb
The growling ghost inside my gut
The drawer left open yesterday
The toppled pile of disarray
The hungry tug away from tasks
The dream today that just distracts
The chair pulled out and left that way
The knick-knack put back out of place
The water boiling down to bare
The scent of scorching in the air
The fitful feeling left ajar
The cold stuffs spoiling where they are
The dust shadow upon the shelf
The empty pang for something else
You reside inside this space
Here you are again
This ache

-a.r.

Pandora Waterhouse
Painting: Pandora by John William Waterhouse

Ember

•January 5, 2016 • Leave a Comment

I watched that last ember
Ash gasping for life
I mourned as it flashed
Spark to black

Then it surprised me
Clawed quick back to light
I stayed witness
To learn from its fight

-a.r.

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Painting: Lady by the Fireplace by Gustav Klimt

Bent

•January 3, 2016 • 3 Comments

Sitting crooked on the floor
When all the lines are straight
I feel an urge to straighten up
This time
My selfish will can wait

-a.r.

image.jpeg Image found here: http://whitenoten.tumblr.com/post/81567132535

My Box

•January 2, 2016 • 5 Comments

Smiley face
Have a nice day
Shit happens
Neon yellow to mud to blood
And a face wiped clean
It all works out for Forrest, doesn’t it
All the pieces of fate falling into place
But what about Bubba?
His ending is so much messier
Closing eyes and lines but halfway through
We all imagine we are central
Characters in some passion play
But what if that is, always, someone else
What if we are all, always, Bubba
Dying too soon in a swell of river grass
And rolling thunder
Cold, getting colder, and asking for our mama
While our friends and heroes look up and live on
In a swell of strings and rolling credits
In truth, in life
In boxes of chocolate
We always know exactly
What we’re gonna get

-a.r.

image

I was unable to find who to credit for this painting.
If you know please pass along the information
and I will gladly credit the artist.
Thank you.

Home and Skin

•December 17, 2015 • 2 Comments

I should write
But I exhale
The “shoulds” whisper
To no avail
I settle in
To home and skin
Until the watch
Begins again

-a.r.

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Painting by Jack Vettriano

Reposted because it is an annual tradition and an annual struggle…to let go of my ambition for a moment, in order to exhale and be with family.