Dissolution & Disillusion
Have you ever lost someone?
Not to disease, or distance, or death
But to an idea
Where once there was a connection
Of shared pain and life fumbled
Where once the reality of solitary existence
Was willingly disguised for the giddy illusion
“We are not alone”
One mythology now replaced by another
This one a God with whom I cannot compete
A deity who never instilled faith in me
The way our bay window observations once did
There is no constant
This is the illusion that I must release
No God, no friend, no moment lasts forever
Yet still I am here without having been destroyed
Or struck by lightning
Yet
With only a tiny tick of desire burrowing from heart to brain
Looking for a comforting mythology to feed on
With none to be found
Either within myself or without
I am at a loss
sometimesihatemycat 
i think i get what you are talking about, especially losing someone to an idea. the worst thing is that they linger on and there’s nothing you can really do…
Yep, the grief that you feel when someone who has been a dear friend travels down an ideological road that you cannot follow. I guess the grief is not so much about the difference of ideology as realizing that nothing stays the same.
yes, that change cuts deep.