Sensitive to the Whole

I am reconnected to my body
In a way I must have been
When I was seven

Before eight years old
Hands turned cold
And I became frozen

Backed in a corner
Of myself
For survival

One by one pulled out
The cords that connected
Neurons to nerves

But now the stillness
The waiting and watching
The safety of silence

Has allowed a re-wiring
A warm humming of the living
That carries me out of that corner

http://fineartamerica.com/featured/raining-diego-fernandez.html

~ by April on January 30, 2013.

Posted in Abuse, Body, Humanity, Identity, Loss, Meditation, Poetry
Tags: Body, Disconnection, meditation, poetry, Reconnection, Sexual Abuse

12 Responses to “Sensitive to the Whole”

Great piece, April. And the image captures it perfectly. I wonder if you’ve thought of sharing this poem with a victims-of-sexual-abuse site?

Glenn Wallis said this on January 30, 2013 at 11:41 am | Reply
- Thanks so much. It was based, obviously, on our meditation last night…and the felt sense I had on that edge. :-). As for publishing on a sexual abuse site, i would love to but i have to admit that I am not quite sure how, or even the best one to post to. In spite of all my posting…I am not that savvy about the rest of blogging. :-/.
  
  sometimes said this on January 30, 2013 at 11:47 am | Reply
- Perhaps send me an email with some simple instructions about how to do that. I am afraid I need a bit of hand holding to take that next step.
  
  sometimes said this on January 30, 2013 at 11:49 am | Reply
I have no words. I am sorry.

Romantic Dominant said this on January 30, 2013 at 4:00 pm | Reply
- No words necessary. I appreciate your compassion. But, we all have our suffering…this just happens to be mine. I have made some peace with it. Even when I am struggling, I end up learning a lot about myself, about others, and about humanity itself. I think the best we can do is speak up in whatever form that takes. This is my form. Thanks for reading, and for being moved.
  
  sometimes said this on January 30, 2013 at 5:29 pm | Reply
  - I am moved. A cyber hug seems a ridiculously inane thing to say and imagine – but there, I have said it and sent it.
    
    Romantic Dominant said this on January 30, 2013 at 5:31 pm | Reply
  - P.S. Hugs are never inane. They take on a special meaning for me because they are very difficult for me, but when I give in to them I am pleasantly surprised. Thanks for the hug.
    
    sometimes said this on January 31, 2013 at 9:03 am | Reply
Thanks. 🙂

sometimes said this on January 30, 2013 at 6:45 pm | Reply
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randomandunheardof said this on February 9, 2013 at 1:48 pm | Reply
- Wow! I am thrilled. I am always surprised that anyone is even reading, much less enjoying. Thanks so much. Much appreciation to you.
  
  sometimes said this on February 9, 2013 at 2:27 pm | Reply
  - thank you too
    
    randomandunheardof said this on February 9, 2013 at 2:29 pm | Reply
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