sometimesihatemycat

To be honest
To be human
To be exposed
To be terrified
To gut myself
To destroy myself
To heal myself
To fuck you
To obliterate you
To understand you
To find silence
To find belief
To find the answer
To spew my venom
To spew my violation
To spew my questions
To show myself
To show you
To show them all
To be brutal
To be loved
To be allowed
To remember
To imagine it
To forget
To create connection
To create perfection
To create a monster
To disturb you
To soothe you
To encourage you
To illustrate
To plainly state
To rail against
To exist
To matter
To leave behind
To be brave
To be fortified
To be immortal
To be a lie

-a.r.

Painting: Transformation by Maciej Wierzbicki

~ by April on March 13, 2015.

Posted in Abuse, Humanity, Identity, Poetry, Writing
Tags: Belief, Explicit, Fragments, Implicit, poetry, Rilke, Sexual Abuse, Sexual Abuse Recovery, Sloterdijk, To make explicit, Why I write, Writing