Failing

•September 2, 2013 • 2 Comments

I forgot
Why I stopped mid-step
Turned from my task
And walked into this room

It feels like it must have been vital
But the particulars now escape
Me standing here confused
Blank

Do you remember
What we were discussing
When I started, changed direction
Looked away and leapt

I have heard
That it is the passing through a threshold
Which muffles our memory
So now what

Return through the doorway
From whence I came
Start over again
Or sit and wait

–April Resnick

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Forgotten Memories, by Aja

Haunted

•September 1, 2013 • 2 Comments

All of us have weaknesses
Whether they are actually real or not
The things we think about ourselves
During dark days of idle thought

A monster that we sometimes feed
When we start to compare
Ourselves to what we think should be
Or to the other undead standing there

Today that creature came to life
Crawled through my gut onto the screen
With echoed words he quite disturbed
His demons sent to spew on me

So I sit and feel the nausea while
Tentacles of failure squeeze my skin
Until it occurs, we sometimes use words
To push poltergeists away and into “them”

I am not afraid to exorcise my self
In full view for everyone to see
Because I am aware we all go there
This horror house is occupied by “we”

And the truth is it’s only scary
When we feel alone and in the dark
We could turn on the lights, to spite the night
Revealing all our humble human scars

No more monsters, no more demons
No more spewing on each other
Let us simply discuss this human muss
No ghastly ghosts here, but one another

— April Resnick

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Haunted, by Anthony Schectman

Peanut Revisted

•September 1, 2013 • Leave a Comment

There is a tiny peanut in my brain

That rattles in its shell

A lone marble in a Ball jar

Even in my stillness

It continues a circular track

With crisp whirring

Winding itself down

It might come to rest if my skull is long enough still

But I think

The laws of physics argue against it

Each languishing toss of my head

Searching for comfort

Sets that peanut back in motion

Through the labyrinth of my tissue

A loud cracking echoes as it clinks against my cranium

Oh that it would grow roots

Be still

I would pull it from my wormy earth

Grind it down to smear on my morning toast

To be satisfied

And done with it

–April Resnick

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Asshole

•August 30, 2013 • 2 Comments

When I take myself too seriously
I become way too full of shit
And spend all my time clinching
To hold in every stodgy bit

Perhaps it’s time to squat and let it rip
Let my ass hang in the wind
Forget the swipe and have a wipe
Relieve myself and giggle once again

— April Resnick

 

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A donkey painted by Dieter Marzinger,
A South African artist who paints with his mouth.
http://www.mouthonly.com

Outside Chance (repost)

•August 28, 2013 • 2 Comments

Tonight
I find myself choosing
Between a tough fight
And a soft relinquishing

I have no fear of sweat and blood
Especially my own
I have blinked away salt and sting before
Tasted that sanguine tincture on my tongue
Just as I have gritted and grinned
Guffawed even at the shattering
Of my own sanity
While I shook it off
And got to the business
Of setting it back into place
With a quick jerk and a wince

Harder still is stepping back
And letting his fist fly just beyond me
Leaving only a slight breeze
Which carries with it a faint scent of sweat
And deflated fury
To keep my swollen gaze downward
And let myself listen, for an instant

To shocked silence
A moment of pure possibility
While we wait
To see what I will choose next

Tonight I find myself

–April Resnick

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Boxing-2, by Kalel Koven

Life Cycle

•August 28, 2013 • 2 Comments

My attention flits like a housefly
But I am learning to let it rest
The way the fly begins to linger
The closer it gets to death

— April Resnick

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Alert Fly, by Jacek Yerka

Summer Extinction Event

•August 27, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Riding tricera-bike and scooter-saur
Silly story crafted while we swing
A giant beach ball boulder game
After a ride on pterodactyl wing

A prehistoric potty break
Toilet paper turned to giant leaves
Red rock fruit and Loch Ness water
Bone butter and a side of mini-mammal cheese

Wait, I see a shadow overhead
Comet Copper Beech is coming
Homework ash clouds will rain down
Cooling the warmth of summer sunning

With prehistory over
Winter wonderland will soon begin
We’ll trade our reptile hides for space suits
And bundled up moonwalks to school again

— April Resnick

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Mother Earth, Mother Dinosaur, by Hallelujah Truth

Catch and Release

•August 26, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Tombstones line the mountain’s face
Like rows of planted pines
A temporary sense of permanence
We like to think unmoved by time

But trees and tombstones topple
Lakes and lochs they rise and fall
And we will pass more quickly
Though we pretend to outlive all

Like catching newts and holding them
We let life crawl between our hands
But soon we choose a kind release
A child returning life back to the land

So pull me near as night descends
A family around the fire
Let’s eat and drink and whisper sweet
Before these wondrous days expire

— April Resnick

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Locust Lake State Park, by Adam Resnick

Adrift

•August 19, 2013 • 2 Comments

I am untethered
A green globe drifting, floating
Party balloon of the gods
Foiled favor gone too far, let go
Having given up the ghost
Denied the host
A proper gift, goodbye
I will not be played with
POP!

— April Resnick

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Average Children (repost)

•August 17, 2013 • Leave a Comment

I feel sorry for the little ones,
That evoke not one response,
For I birth and love them just the same,
As those that gather praise at once.

I am always glad I held them,
Especially those that show no skill,
For even they reflect some part of me,
When writing nothing never will.

— April Resnick

writerWriting Home by Daniel Gerhartz

I decided perhaps to repost some older poems, for people who are newly following my blog.  But I will repost based on current feelings, struggles, events in my life.  Currently I am learning a lot about myself and my writing by writing down every poem that comes to me (published or not) because even the “bad” ones lead me somewhere.