Flight

•February 26, 2013 • 4 Comments

From 10,000 feet

And ascending

A rock quarry

Reminds me of my middle

A hole meticulously scooped out

In search of precious pebblesQuarryLimestone

An inverted Mayan temple

At its pinnacle

A tiny mirrored pool

Full of earthy minerals

Reflecting light and sky

In the midst of dirt and rock

And manmade machines

That carry once buried bits away

But all that welled up water

Must be worked around

Cannot be ignored

Smooth and glassy

Occasionally rippled by wind and weather

Blue and beautiful

Born of steadfast immovability

Blackout

•February 22, 2013 • 2 Comments

When the lights go out

Small things are easier to lose

Big things are harder to avoid bumping into

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I, Me, Mind

•February 20, 2013 • 1 Comment

Mind
A relay station
Between sensation and story
Beyond that
I do not quite understand it
I cannot quite master it
I will use it
For words and watching
A teardrop spilled and falling
Down the side of a porcelain tub
Sometimes I lie at the bottom
Let the water fill
Warm surface tension
Slowly inching upward
Around my face
I cannot help but
To imagine what this
Last breath
Might feel like
Would I savor it
Or let fear and anxiety invade
My last full inhalation
Mind
A relay station
Between sensation and story

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Painting, “Bathtub” by Richard Lezette

Say Something

•February 18, 2013 • 4 Comments

Say something nice to me,
Just because I am,
Trying, living, making an effort.

Say something nice to me,
Not because I am good,
Or even slightly worthy.

Say something kind to me,
Because your voice soothes,
When self doubt scorches my soul.

Say something kind to me,
As if yours were the last,
I would hear on this earth.

Say something sweet to me,
To tide me over,
Until I can believe and be satiated.

Say something sweet to me,
While my own bitter tongue,
Lashes me so.

Say something, anything, to me,
To remind me that I exist,
At all.

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Flesh

•February 17, 2013 • 4 Comments

Exposed
Dirty
Gritty
Handled
Washed
Smooth
Shining
Pressed
Peeled
Grated
Pungent
Bitter
Tang
Lingering
Depth

Sacrificed for my consumption,
Sweet pulp left mangled and dripping,
From the tree, of the vine?
I marveled in your deconstruction,
Had a hand in your destruction,
I am fed, intoxicated, titillated.

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Painting: http://www.carolleethompson.com

My Promise

•February 14, 2013 • Leave a Comment

I cannot give you normal,
Sweet girl,
It is not written in our DNA.

I cannot give you perfection,
Firecracker,
It does not exist.

I cannot give you siblings,
One and only,
I am aware of my own resources.

I cannot give you God,
“My little witch,”
When I cannot find him myself.

I cannot give you ALL of me,
Dear daughter,
Without compromising us.

I cannot give you forever,
Butterfly,
We must learn to value now.

But I can give you my presence,
Baby girl,
I am here.

While I can will it,
Leia,
I will show up for you.

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Abandonment and Abdication

•February 12, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Updated in light of recent events:

Abandonment and Resignation.

My Secret Name

•February 10, 2013 • 4 Comments

My secret name, once shameSecret

But more than that

Its very nature of staying hidden

Forbidden

Did more damage than the naming

Today it is not a secret

I say my name, no shame

While others cannot quite pronounce it

When they make any effort

At all, at any time, along with mine

The listening, speaking, honesty

Gives my name its due value

And I can go about my day

Finally settled in, my own skin

Proud to be called…

Close to the Bone

•February 7, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Not an itch,

but nerve endings firing.

Not anxiety,

but gnawing in my stomach.

Not love,

but pulling towards another.

Not pain,

but muscle and bone reacting.

Not excitement,

but fluttering in my chest.

Not anger,

but heat that travels from ears to face.

Not joy,

but warm vibration in my middle.

Not worry,

but tightening from temples to forehead.

Not a sneeze,

but triggered nose hairs.

Not sadness,

but heaviness around my heart.

Not boredom,

but restlessness of mind and body.

Not gratitude,

but tears in the corners of my eyes.

Not emotions

but biology, hormones, sensation, reaction.

Not stories

but being alive.

GoosebumpsBlackWhite

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A Felt Sense of The Edge

•February 1, 2013 • Leave a Comment

When the barometer drops

My body and brain have already felt it

Like approaching an event horizon

My psyche is stretched and pulled

My feet fall far away

My middle pulled thin

My head hurled upward

I have no poles to keep me upright

Just a blob of wobble

Until I am sucked away from my reality

  I hope I end up somewhere exciting

Or anywhere at all

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