Morning Meditation

•April 25, 2013 • 3 Comments

When I am silent and still long enough,

Tiny creatures cautiously make their way,

Out of hushed hiding.

The winged perch on rooftops warmed by the morning,

Arthropods and insects creep out of cool grassy shadows,

My pause provides cover for their communal living.

Songs and skittering,

Wandering and weaving,

Buzzing by and hovering,

I cannot keep myself from wondering,

Have I faded into the scenery?

Another flowering weed growing wild?

Or do they sense that I am different,

And allow my presence anyway,

Because I have stopped a moment, and allowed for theirs.

–by Me

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Postmeditation (Solitude)

•April 23, 2013 • 1 Comment

“In my solitude I’ve seen very clearly things that aren’t so.” — Antonio Machado

Concentrated solitude
Like mining and sifting carefully for precious metals
Open solitude
Like carelessly draining the water table
Causing the earth to fall in on itself
A sinkhole devouring haphazardly

My vision blurs
Creating gnarled and knotted hands in my lap
Bones elongated and emaciated
Joints swollen like balloons
Fingers at misshapen angles
Feet puffed up appearing squeezed into shoes
My grandmothers extremities
Have replaced my own
By the end of it
My hands are aching from overuse
My feet tight and stretched to translucency
Paralysis is surely soon to follow
Oh wait!
Paralysis of vision, movement, attention
Is exactly what started all this mess

–by Me

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My Grandmother’s Hands by Robert Hambrick

Premeditation (Solitude)

•April 23, 2013 • Leave a Comment

“In my solitude I’ve seen very clearly things that aren’t so.” — Antonio Machado

I’ve noticed
My daughter’s nighttime wrestle
With solitude
Mirrors my own.
Alone in the dark, in bed
That is when terror arises
Not about monsters in closets
Or demons or ghosts
But more the monsters in our head.
The things left undone
Unprocessed, unsaid
Perhaps our tears not fully shed.
Chores to do
Decision to be made
In solitude our self-doubt invades.
I tell her it will look better in the light
To let these things go just for tonight.
But find myself unable to do the same
Until I remember my own advice
Find my breath and let myself
Sleep and wake again.

–by Me

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Stay In Bed All Night, All Day by Emily Tebbetts

Mind Over Matter

•April 22, 2013 • 2 Comments

Wrapping

Mind

Around

Impossible

Inescapable

Mind

Invades

All

Even

Quiet

Still

Mind

Directs

Attention

Experience

Perception

Integration

Mind

Acknowledged

Ignored

Concentrated

Diffuse

Wasted

Mind

Wrapped

Wandering

Wrinkled

Weathered

Warped

Mind

— Me

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In My Mind by Simona Mereu

Roots of Change

•April 18, 2013 • 5 Comments

Something about me has changed,

I only noticed when I went away.

Things no longer neatly in their place,

It seems the mess and mud are quite okay.

 

Harder though to say goodbye,

Craving familial affection I once denied.

Wanting to pull them close awhile,

My view has changed to spite the miles.

 

Is it all the sitting or is it my age,

Or is it my writing on this page?

All, or none, no way to gauge,

Perhaps my own life now engaged.

–by Me

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Cyprus Tree Reflection by Ciocan Tudor-cosmin

Anima

•April 10, 2013 • Leave a Comment

I stopped for the death of a small thing
Alerted by animal screams
Yes, baby rabbits scream
When bleeding and shivering at canine feet

I scoop up little kit for warmth
Away from the jaws
Determined to cradle as solemn sleep falls
Swaddle in my daughter’s baby burp cloth

I will stay, my hand on its matted fur
I will witness this brief existence on earth
I will do what I can to soothe the struggle
The inevitable result of birth

I weep and hope it ends quickly
Breathing turns to gasps, seizing
Suffering together, I take over its heaving
Shaking and grieving

And then life has passed
An exhale of a moment almost missed
Gaze once with mine, eyes now cloud and fix

I feel the warmth dissipate
Anima escaped
I can see why some believe there is a soul to take
It is done and we are both visibly changed
In those early morning moments
Grateful it is finished before my own little one wakes

–by me

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Strength

•April 8, 2013 • 2 Comments

Expressing the spectrum
Does not reveal a chink
Instead intricate chain-mail
That moves, gives, and breathes

Less guarded is not weakness
But links forged one by one
To provide vital organs flexible protection
While letting in the air and light

I train with stillness for the on-slot
I am prepared enough to meet the earth alone
I will face it alive and vulnerable
I choose the front lines

Unsaddled for battle
My boots land firmly in the mud
Grateful to have traded plate armor for chain
I want to feel the sun and at the end, the rain

— by me

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Self Portrait

•April 7, 2013 • 2 Comments

One mistress
I cannot explain
Why I am haunted these last days
Her eyes have me captured
And coming back to look again
The tilt and shadow of a hat on skin
Covering curious wisdom
A captivating contrast to the pale
Framed by dark pageboy trimmed hair
Monochrome
Broken by lips
Barely reddened by so slight a grin
Crisp white collared shirt
But form under jacket betrays
And those gloves, those clever gloves of grey

Masculine denied by feminine whispers
Feminine shored up by masculine lines
Power at the moment where roles unwind
Harsh lines of built formations blur
Blending into background
Do I want her
Do I want to be her
Am I her
One mistress, no master
— by me

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Self Portrait by Romaine Brooks

Inspired by Romaine Brooks, her life and her art.

The Farmer

•April 6, 2013 • 1 Comment

The Farmer

–by Me

I am reposting this in honor of National Poetry Month and to commemorate the poem it is based on, The Snowman by Wallace Stevens.  That is a poem that nearly 4 years ago changed my life. Thank you Wallace Stevens and thank you Alan Seltzer for reading and discussing it after meditation that Monday night.  It reminded me of my love of poetry and sparked a creativity and curiosity that I had forgotten.  I am still writing and still curious and owe a debt to poetry and to you Alan.

Here is the original poem by Wallace Stevens:

http://www.poetryfoundation.org/poem/174502

Tipsy Topsy Turvy

•April 3, 2013 • 2 Comments

Hangers drive me crazy,
The way they tangle, claw, and cling.
Domestic drudge of daily duty,
A wily web I’d like to sling.

But toss one and all go flying,
Like barreled monkeys when they link.
It’s enough to limit life to folding,
Or just let clothes wrinkle while I drink!

–by Me

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